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cousin came in, saw me in the state i was in, didn't say a word and just gave me a hug. couldn't help but just starting to cry. so glad that there's him at a time like this. like the brother i never had. today, i deemed it to be the worst day of the week. i dun even know why am i crying because of such stuff. always deemed not good enough really doesn't feel good. feel accomplished and then the next moment, all the happiness i felt just literally got washed away. what's left is always this empty carcass of sorrow. today, i just felt everything that i placed away a year ago. today, i felt like a toy again. can't stop crying. became so weak.

feeling my passion drift away is a really scary thing. for once, i really felt no more joy in something i strongly believed gave me the most smiles. i just want to sleep and hope that everything disappears tomorrow. please, just go away. it's hard choking back all the tears.
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