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Reflection
it's time for a thorough reflection on the bitter sweet semester. before i bid good bye to it.
April
started off the sch term with cca fiesta. hahah, can still vaguely remember the time i sat down for the entire day and paste down 476 cards. and was so worried that they were not done by monday. sleepless night prior to the day of cca fiesta and was so glad that my awesome dance peeps were there to help me finish the rest of the cards :) was really glad with the end product and the response after that. ups and downs during that period. raging, happiness, broke down, rage even more. hahah, like some pms bitch but yeah i couldn't help myself. but april was awesome. focus alot on dance. met someone beautiful on the way through this month.
May
this month was really a month of ups and downs. was on this great emotional roller coaster. i guessed i let myself too into something that i thought was going to happen. more expectations led to more disappointment and more tears. i was too stupid to see that it wasn't that way. but i let myself fall stupidly in this one sided trap. already told myself that i will build this huge protective shield around myself to block myself off all these emotional hurt, yet i let my guard down and i was down right hurt. served me right, like wth was i thinking? then it was stress, stress and more stress coming from every single direction. family, dance, studies. GAHHH TOOO OVERWELMING
June
i placed the emotional barrier down. and was far more happy than i ever was. because i saw something that made me so disgusted that i knew it was time to let it go. because it totally just reminded me of everything i dun want to have. and it was a good thing i didn't hold on. goodness. can't imagine if i did. June was filled with so much fun! especially camp! even though it was so hard to plan for it, but seeing it go super well, i felt super happy, even though i endured the entire camp with running nose, fever and my awesome sexay voice. the dance camp tees turned out great, but due to my carelessness, there was a mistake in the design. le sigh :( then it was time for my buffday!!! hehehhe, yes i'm finally 18 and fianlly legal! HURRAYYYY. hehhehe, got a minion plushy and a dot book from Hilary, Richard, Eugene, Sean and Alvin. celebrated with korean bbq! and classmates gave me an eiffel tower mug :D LOOK HOW CUTE MR MINION IS <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">
July
Most hectic month this sem. training for 5th tda, test after test. guess it was this time that i lost my priority in stuff. i lost my goal, lost sight of what was truly important. i forgot the reason why was i striving so hard, why was i tiring myself out so much every single day. was truly torturous to the soul, but i got through it. with the help of my awesome dance mates, peers and God. well, training did pay off. 3 medals at 5th TDA. wasn't the best, but it was good enough and i was contented. won my first outside comp gold medal :) super happy. then had performances too. hilary and I broke NPDS history. to be the first girl girl couple to perform our private routine :) heheheh. besides all these, i finally saw all those lies this person has been feeding me since the day i knew her. even quarrelled with the person i cared the most because of this fucktard. i hate being lied to. i hate to be given empty promises. i'll slap her, if i could.
August
UTTER MUGGATION. hahhaha, studied so much.always meeting up with the study clique- Richard, Kelly to study for this exams. and finally, I CAN REST. sleep well tonight. HURRAY :D. went out today after my paper to meet my lovelies for lunch, it has been so long since i last saw trace. and was happy to see her! hang out and chilled after lunch with trace, after the awesome lunch with her and Ingrid (it's such a small world, my classmate knows my friends!) then went out with Kelly Tay Susu to get our nails done. so prettay now :) then after which, was the long awaited harry potter exhibition with Kelly and Richard! heheh yeah man. although it was a little of a disappointment, it was still a fun post exam celebration. hehehhe, can finally go shopping watch movies and just have funnnn! can't wait to go back to the dancefloor. and that marked the end of this horrid sem.
this month, i lost my beautiful friend to. i miss her, but i know she's in a better place now :)
alright, done with my reflection, but i gotta add on something..hmmmm.
the thing is, i hate being treated as an option. okay, i get it that i'm not good enough, but still, how would it feel if you were treated as an option? how hurt would i feel? how hurt would the other person feel? i hate being lied to. and i hate ppl who lie, to me, to my close friends. i never once expected that it would come from you. but i guess i was wrong. you just totally broke all my trust i have for you.
right, now it's time for reading :) HI BEAUTIFUL BOOKS!
OLDER POST / NEWER POST
Reflection
it's time for a thorough reflection on the bitter sweet semester. before i bid good bye to it.
April
started off the sch term with cca fiesta. hahah, can still vaguely remember the time i sat down for the entire day and paste down 476 cards. and was so worried that they were not done by monday. sleepless night prior to the day of cca fiesta and was so glad that my awesome dance peeps were there to help me finish the rest of the cards :) was really glad with the end product and the response after that. ups and downs during that period. raging, happiness, broke down, rage even more. hahah, like some pms bitch but yeah i couldn't help myself. but april was awesome. focus alot on dance. met someone beautiful on the way through this month.
May
this month was really a month of ups and downs. was on this great emotional roller coaster. i guessed i let myself too into something that i thought was going to happen. more expectations led to more disappointment and more tears. i was too stupid to see that it wasn't that way. but i let myself fall stupidly in this one sided trap. already told myself that i will build this huge protective shield around myself to block myself off all these emotional hurt, yet i let my guard down and i was down right hurt. served me right, like wth was i thinking? then it was stress, stress and more stress coming from every single direction. family, dance, studies. GAHHH TOOO OVERWELMING
June
i placed the emotional barrier down. and was far more happy than i ever was. because i saw something that made me so disgusted that i knew it was time to let it go. because it totally just reminded me of everything i dun want to have. and it was a good thing i didn't hold on. goodness. can't imagine if i did. June was filled with so much fun! especially camp! even though it was so hard to plan for it, but seeing it go super well, i felt super happy, even though i endured the entire camp with running nose, fever and my awesome sexay voice. the dance camp tees turned out great, but due to my carelessness, there was a mistake in the design. le sigh :( then it was time for my buffday!!! hehehhe, yes i'm finally 18 and fianlly legal! HURRAYYYY. hehhehe, got a minion plushy and a dot book from Hilary, Richard, Eugene, Sean and Alvin. celebrated with korean bbq! and classmates gave me an eiffel tower mug :D LOOK HOW CUTE MR MINION IS <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">
July
Most hectic month this sem. training for 5th tda, test after test. guess it was this time that i lost my priority in stuff. i lost my goal, lost sight of what was truly important. i forgot the reason why was i striving so hard, why was i tiring myself out so much every single day. was truly torturous to the soul, but i got through it. with the help of my awesome dance mates, peers and God. well, training did pay off. 3 medals at 5th TDA. wasn't the best, but it was good enough and i was contented. won my first outside comp gold medal :) super happy. then had performances too. hilary and I broke NPDS history. to be the first girl girl couple to perform our private routine :) heheheh. besides all these, i finally saw all those lies this person has been feeding me since the day i knew her. even quarrelled with the person i cared the most because of this fucktard. i hate being lied to. i hate to be given empty promises. i'll slap her, if i could.
August
UTTER MUGGATION. hahhaha, studied so much.always meeting up with the study clique- Richard, Kelly to study for this exams. and finally, I CAN REST. sleep well tonight. HURRAY :D. went out today after my paper to meet my lovelies for lunch, it has been so long since i last saw trace. and was happy to see her! hang out and chilled after lunch with trace, after the awesome lunch with her and Ingrid (it's such a small world, my classmate knows my friends!) then went out with Kelly Tay Susu to get our nails done. so prettay now :) then after which, was the long awaited harry potter exhibition with Kelly and Richard! heheh yeah man. although it was a little of a disappointment, it was still a fun post exam celebration. hehehhe, can finally go shopping watch movies and just have funnnn! can't wait to go back to the dancefloor. and that marked the end of this horrid sem.
this month, i lost my beautiful friend to. i miss her, but i know she's in a better place now :)
alright, done with my reflection, but i gotta add on something..hmmmm.
the thing is, i hate being treated as an option. okay, i get it that i'm not good enough, but still, how would it feel if you were treated as an option? how hurt would i feel? how hurt would the other person feel? i hate being lied to. and i hate ppl who lie, to me, to my close friends. i never once expected that it would come from you. but i guess i was wrong. you just totally broke all my trust i have for you.
right, now it's time for reading :) HI BEAUTIFUL BOOKS!
OLDER POSTS / NEWER POSTS
